Fan or Follower

As I sit and listen to Sunday sermons i alwasy pretend like they must not be talking to me.  Ive heard some amazing sermons in my church going days and they are all good and wonderful but they just "apply" better to others life.  The last couple weeks Ben and I have been struggling with where God in leading us in this life, and are we listening to what he really wants from us. So this morning as Ben and I sat in church i tried to listen in a new way. A new way thinking possibly this one is for me, God is speaking to me.  Well turns out the pastor must have known we were coming this week ;) (funny how that works) Its like all the things flowing through our heads and our hearts were built into one big sermon.  Are we a fan or a follower or Christ? Are we running after our own agenda for our life and cheering on "Team Jesus" along the way or we dropping what we are doing, lacing up our shoes and truely following what Christ would have us do.  I listened to the pastors stories, and followed along as he told the story of jonah and could not help but to feel like I am Jonah.  Possibly its how i interperate the story and maybe its not what it means at all but i am i on my big "boat" called life running from what God has planned for me and my husband.  Of course i believe in God and have what i feel to be a very strong faith, i love sharing my faith and trying my best to live the life that he has given me but that is the problem.  I am a GREAT FAN of Jesus. He ended his sermon by saying God gave Jonah a second chance and he is giving you a second chance to listen to his cammands and GO TODAY! Do what God is continuly calling you to do.  I waited, and waited, and waited but that was it. Thats where he ended.  So heres the question. I feel as if God is calling us to do something great, he is leading us and preparing our hearts for something..... Its like you look at your phone and you have 5 missed calls from the same person and a text that says "I MUST TALK TO YOU ITS SO IMPORTANT" and you call back and they dont answer. Thats what i kind of feel like with God.  He has been calling and calling and i didnt pick up, but now i got his message.  So if he could only call me back and let me know waht that real important thing was i would really appreciate it. Now i realize that it is possible that it is not the best time for me to hear that message, or maybe i already heard it, or maybe im just crazy all together. Whatever it is if you happen to think of my crazy "dash" in your prayer time. Please ask God to PICK UP THE DARN PHONE.  

My New Blog

Lately I have been consumed with reading blogs. Adoption blogs, marriage blogs, and even blogs about life.  Usually when i am suppost to be doing other things i spend hours reading about others lives, faith, and journeys.  I decided it would be a good idea to create my own blog to not only share our lifes journey, but writting has alwasy seemed to at times keep my brain from screaming at me inside my head. One time i heard a story, i believe it was a funeral, it was possibly a poem about "the dash."  When someone dies it reads on the front of the bullitin 1975-2012 or whatever that year may be. That dash in between those two years represented the entire life that person was alive.  This story inspired what i decided to name this blog.  As a newly wed EVERYTHING in my "dash" is different. A new home, a new job, a new school and there also seems to be this boy in my room. :) Whatever it is that God has planned for our dash together i believe it to be something great. Something life changing, or maybe even a little "strange" to the outside world.  I cannot wait to see what the Lords plan is for this amazingly great, crazy, confusing, busy, ridiculous dash he has given us.